with radiation is not pleasant. To begin with I have these lead wires going up underneath my chin into my mouth. There is a ball of radiation (somewhat like an over size BB that has been planted in the base of my tongue someway. I don’t even want to know how. I am praying all of the while that it is securely attached someway and I am not going to swallow it.
Add the wires that are delivering the radiation to the right side and back of my tongue, then to top it off the guard that the dentist made which is protecting my teeth and jawbone and seems to be cutting my mouth to shreds. I am not exaggerating one bit when I say that the pain is excruciating.
One night I was just lying in my hospital bed punching the morphine pump and trying to think to say my prayers before I drifted off a bit. I couldn’t for the life of me think what I needed to pray about.
When you have radiation like I did your room is considered contaminated. There is a bag of protective footwear hanging on the outside door knob. As you go into the room there is a protective radiation guard that the nurses stay behind when they come in the room. You soon learn to separate the dedicated oncology nurses from the rest, The ‘rest’ tiptoe in your room and ask '” is there anything you need dear” and hurry out quickly before you get a chance to answer.
All trays, garbage, etc. pile up inside your room and even though the radiation aide declares they are safe to be moved they are still in the room when I leave a few days later. (More to follow.)
I hope this week is going well for you all. I am determined to feel better and I keep praying for that. Stay safe and be happy!!