It's that time of the year....

It's that time of the year....

Friday, November 7, 2014

What it is like for me….

I get up each morning at 5AM.  I have the first morning appointment in radiation  each week day morning.  Most days I am taken in on time but some days like this morning I am taken in a bit early.  Today was my 18th appointment, I have 12 treatments left.

The reason I get up early is so  we can leave home by 7AM.  This enables us to  get a parking spot in front of the building where the radiation is done.  First thing when I get up each morning I take a tablespoon of a compound prescription and swish it around in my mouth and then swallow it.  This is to coat my tongue and throat that has been burned by the radiation,  I have to wait 15 minutes for the numbing to start.  I then can swallow my meds which feel like rocks that I am swallowing.  In the interim I make my bed and get dressed.  By this time the 15 minutes are up I take my meds and eat a bowl of cream of wheat.

I have lost some more weight (3 lbs last week) but I am not in the danger zone yet. I am forcing myself to eat as I declined the feeding tube.  It takes a long time to get a cup of soup down.  The blender has been a blessing.  Bean with bacon soup has been a staple as is cream of chicken and mashed potatoes.

Yesterday I saw an associate of my beloved Dr. McGee (my radiation oncologist).  Very nice looking young man but not nearly as nice as Dr. McGee.  I finally asked the question that I have been afraid to ask, what is my prognosis?  This Dr. M said Dr. McGee  would have to tell me but he did say my radiation has been very aggressive and they do have good results with it.

My daughter has cheerfully taken  me each day and missing part of her work day on Wednesday.  Thank you Marcia.

Thank you to Nana Diana for the prayer blog she did for me.  Such a wonderful caring lady.

I am not intending this blog to be a complaint.  I am just saying what my day is like now.  God has been good to me and I am ever thankful.

Love,

Beth

36 comments:

  1. You are such a strong and wonderful person, Beth. I admire your attitude and fortitude. I'm positive you'll come through all this with flying colors and the cancer will leave you alone! Know that we all here in FB are pulling for you and wishing you well. Big HUGS!

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  2. Oh Beth you know we are all rooting for you! You are missed around here and I miss you as well. I pray for your speedy recovery.

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  3. Dear Beth.. know your days are hard ones.. May God give you all the strength you need in the days to come and know we all are praying for you. Hugs and prayers always.. XOXO

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  4. Thank you for this update, Beth. This is an awful ordeal but you need to have faith that the treatments are helping. You remain in my thoughts and prayers, dear friend.

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  5. Thank you for sharing Beth. It helps us to know better how to pray for you. I'm thankful that your daughter is nearby to help you. Love, Mildred

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  6. Beth, With what you are going through, you can complain if you want to. We love you and know it's not easy for you. I am thankful for your daughter , being there to help you when you need her the most. God will bless her. You are in my daily prayers. You are over the half-way mark , that is good . May God give you the strength you need and your family also. Stay strong Beth. Hugs to you, Susie

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  7. Beth I was so excited to see your post show up today on my blog list. It is wonderful for you to share what you are going through, as we are all so concerned for your well being. Hang in there girl. You are over half way there! It sounds like the doctors are hopeful for the treatments to work, and that's probably all you need to know. Prayers to you from Texas.

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  8. No complaints heard here, Beth, you're just telling us what it is like. (Somehow, I get the sense that you may be sugar-coating it for us because you are a sweetheart like that.) You are past the half-way mark by quite a lot. Yay! So glad that your daughter has been such a help and support for you. Cheering you on!

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  9. It was a joy to me to find you on here today! You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! I'd love to be able to be there to help you. xo Nellie

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  10. Stay strong, Beth. You are still in my prayers!

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  11. Beth I would rather hear from you and what your day is like and have you complain then to not hear from you because I sincerely care about you. Plus you are not complaining - you are going through a HUGE deal right now. I have you on my heart all the time. Hugs and prayers. sandie

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  12. Oh my dear Beth you are the strongest woman I have ever known and you are doing so well. Keep it up OK I know it is hard but you are so loved and need to. HUGS HUGS B

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  13. Oh Beth- You are most welcome and my part is so very, very small. I just think that everyone we know should be praying you through this. It sounds like you are doing everything you should be doing and with God by your side I know that His arms are wrapped around you seeing you through all this. Just think you are MORE THAN halfway through the treatment plan. You just have to stay strong a few more weeks. Just think - you will be all done by Valentine's Day!

    Love to you and many, many prayers. You are such a dear, good soul. xo Diana

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  14. Thanks for helping me to understand your treatments. You write very descriptive explanations of the procedures and I wait for you to be back full strength! Carry on, fine lady!

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  15. What a tough time you are going through and I'm sure it is worse than you are letting on. I've said it before but I continue to pray for you each morning. Hang in there my friend.

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  16. You are one special and strong lady.

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  17. A normal day for you is a struggle.
    Thanks for sharing.
    You are over half way - Prayers continue.

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  18. i was just thinking of you and saying a prayer the other day. Thanks for letting us know what is going on with you as this can help us to pray more specifically.

    Keep encouraged dear Beth ((hugs))

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  19. It helps to know what you are going through so we can focus our prayers even better. The way I figure your time left for these treatments they should be done in two weeks and 2 days. So you will be done before December. That is something, to look forward to being done with it, hopefully forever. God continue to bless you in every way. I'm so glad Your Marsha has been going with you. I'm sure that helps. Keep the faith and know how much you are loved and appreciated by so many. Hugs. Bertie

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  20. May our dear Lord be with you in this very difficult time Beth. You sound like a very strong and a very optimistic lady. I can't even fathom what you are going through, all I can do is pray for you and for your quick healing.
    Keep on keeping on.

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  21. Beth it is good to share what you are going through. I hope when it is over, and it will be soon, that maybe you will be able to speak to others. As compassionate and aware as you are, you would be excellent as a support person . You have benn through so muvh, and still are kind and caring. Bless you. You are special. Hug.

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  22. Beth you put my life into perspective and help me to appreciate what I have. you are such a brave lady, my God give you the strength and will to get through this, we mortals are rooting for you. Hugs

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  23. Wow I just can't imagine what you must be going through. What I find inspiring is that you are thankful for each day you have inspite of the trials you are going through. May God grant you healing and comfort.

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  24. you are such a brave woman, taking the time to share with us is such a generous thing, I keep you in my prayers, I wish I had a magic wand that would make this all go away, I truly do,

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  25. You are amazing just so you know, you such incredible strength and are such an inspiration to all of us who read this blog

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  26. Every time you blog I am grateful that you found the time and the energy to share how you are with us. I think of you every day Beth and pray that life will become easier for you very soon x

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  27. Oh Beth each day is a hard one for you, I pray God gives you the strength . You are such a brave lady , I can not imagine what your going through, stay in good mind and have faith.
    Hugs Sheila x

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  28. Please know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Your strength and courage are such an inspiration! {{{{HUGS}}}}

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  29. I pray for you without ceasing, Beth. I hope that gives you some comfort.

    Love,
    Janie

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  30. Thank you for sharing with us. Your daughter is wonderful. I would do the same for my mother. Stay strong and know that you're in so many hearts, thoughts and prayers. :)

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  31. Thinking good thoughts and sending a prayer from Minnesota for healing. You should be down to eight treatments about now. You can do it! :).

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  32. Praying the next treatments go quickly and the side effects get better.

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  33. Blessings...
    I don't see it as a complaint, rather a sharing of your journey.
    You are a strong woman and it sounds like you have a great support system.
    I am glad you are not alone.

    stay blessed.
    You are always in my prayers.

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  34. You only have a few treatments left. You are strong and you will beat this. I am praying for you as are so many of your other blogging friends. Hang in there Beth!

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  35. I'm not sure of you got this comment but I am thinking of you without fail many many times a day and I am sending my love, dear Twin.

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  36. Stay strong as you are doing Beth. Loves and huggies.

    Thank you for updating us. What a loving daughter you have to be with you and of course take you to hospital . Will continue to pray for you.

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